Changes | Julie

In Blog, Julie by Libby

I always love the start of a new season. In the Fall, I’m ready for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. The cold winter seems a good partner to those holidays. But once the holidays have passed, I’m ready to thaw out in the Spring – my favorite season! Excitement comes with summer: school lets out, the pool opens, summer vacations! But soon I think we are all ready for the cool breezes of Fall.

Despite my love of the changing of seasons, I’m not so fond of change in my life. It brings much anxiety. I typically prefer to be under the illusion that I am in control. And when it becomes obvious that I am not, I panic a bit. My brain goes into overdrive trying to solve a puzzle with infinite possibilities. “If this happens, then we’ll do this, this, and this. But if that happens, then we’ll do that, that, and that. But what if the other happens?” I try to cover every scenario, so whatever happens, I feel secure.

But it’s a false security. I will never find my security in anything or anyone in this world. Not even in myself and my most extensive plans. But there is a place where I can find security – in God. I love Psalm 121.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills– where does my help come from? 2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. 3 He will not let your foot slip– he who watches over you will not slumber; 4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. 5 The LORD watches over you– the LORD is your shade at your right hand; 6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD will keep you from all harm– he will watch over your life; 8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Our security is found in the same God who made the heavens and the earth. A God who doesn’t sleep; He is constantly watching us. Day & night. Now and forevermore. A God who cares enough for us that He will not even let our feet slip. That God is the God who provides our security!

When I have a clear head, I gladly give control over to that God. In reality, I never really had control anyway.