I may be writting this for attention or not, but here i go. I need god to show his hand in my life. I been battling with a spending money problem. I hate my job and god knows what it is. Part of it is my additude and part the job its self. I battle self harm thoughts, because i beat myself up with doubt, fear self worth, insecurity.
I prayed for so long and somedays even on goods one i feel its not worth living. I could be saying this to see if anyone cares, im not sure. But these are the things i think about.
I just need courage to do something to change my situation in gods way and purpase