How can I honor my father when he chose my childhood abuser over me and kicked me out of the house? He then threatened to ban me from ALL family funerals and tried to set up a funeral for a beloved uncle WITHOUT TELLING ME. Over at least 20 years he has again and again been embarrassed of me and has punished me repeatedly and looked down upon me for "flaws" he thinks I have that are actually DIAGNOSABLE SYMPTOMS OF A CHILDHOOD TRAUMA VICTIM.
i love him.
how can i honor him when it's been more than 70x70 times I've had to forgive him, YET HE WILL NOT STOP.