Dimitry
The fact that despite my young age of 26, I will die soon. Doctors
say that at this stage of cancer to do anything is pointless. All my
life I was disabled (as a child stepped on a rusty nail and got blood
poisoning, which later resulted in chronic osteomyelitis) - I have never
had a good work - injury are not allowed to claim a decent income
after I graduated. Life tried to treat the heart, which is also
unfortunately the problems. Father left the family early, and the real
friends I never met in life. To top it off, recently a fire destroyed
our home. Until I sent my daughter to the relatives ex-wife, but what
to do next - I don't know. I feel very bad, I don't know what to do
now. I so want to look in my daughter's eyes without permanent
shame, I want to give her anything. All the dreams and hopes gone in
a moment.
My heart is full of pain and despair. I love my daughter, but its so
sad that i will miss everything - I cant be with her when she will be
sad. Couldn't share her joy. Can't play with her. She so small and so
lovely. And she so early will lose her father.
Also I would like to help my mom - she gave up her
happiness to rise me. Unfortunately, I did not have time to give her
a reason to be proud of me. I would like once in my life to feel not like a loser, at least this short period of time.
God didn't hear my prayers, but I want to believe that good,
incredible people of your town will hear.